Puzzle Monday

Yep that’s the name I gave my Monday this week. My kids were so exhausted and the struggle to wake up and get ready for the Monday class session was real. I immediately decided to name the day and walked to them and said β€œ ladies take as much time as you want in your bed , today is puzzle Monday after all β€œ My youngest had already suggested whilst covered in her blanket that she just wants to finish her puzzles πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ

So what did I do ? I complied . One day off wouldn’t hurt even for a type A like me . Instead of taking the time to rest , I remembered that curtain that has been falling off for the past six months and no one dared to fix it, that backsplash that has been getting all the grease from the lockdown cooking and I was just ignoring it and I also put polish on the worn out wooden floors that had not been touched for the last 30 days …. whhhhheeeewww .

Whilst I was at it , I attended to 15 payments that had to be made , cleared 71 new emails and browsed through the 34 unattended and decided today is still not the day for them and continued to mark them as unread . By the time the clock hit 12:00 I still had not disinfected the kitchen nor had I mopped the floor – eeeeynaaa

Just like that , it was time for the girls to join the Zoom dance class at 13:45 and off we went !!!! They danced their hearts out and it was marvelous !!!

Then it was lunch time . Lucky for me yesterday’s dumpling and stew was enough for today . Munched they did and off I went to attend to KG who had backaches and tension on his body . By the time I was done with bath salts it was past 4pm . I had to take a shower from all the exhaustion then jumped back to work , phone calls and all. I got an hour in front of TV and watched the Penny Heins documentary and that was all.

After that I decided it was time to put my research work on paper and I went right back to work mode . By the time it was 23:00 I was still sober like a judge. Well that’s life during the lockdown .

Some people managed to do five puzzles , from 50 pieces to a 500 pieces – very impressive for a four and six year old !!! They got somethings done βœ…

#lockdownsouthafrica

My daughter hated puzzles and the lockdown has built patience in her . So glad she’s enjoying the challenge
The six year old lives and loves indoors and puzzles are her second most comfortable hobby. She was doing 500 PCs for the first time
The zoom dance classes were fantastic!!!!

Homeschooling during the lockdown

31 March 2020 – this was the official date for the South African public schools to re-open . And open they did , from home that is , amidst the lockdown.

I say opened they did because our school was quite pro-active during this process. We received a full curriculum to teach our Grade-1 daughter from 31 March 2020 right through to the end of the lockdown( the initial lockdown). I am grateful for the school’s leadership and spontaneity on the matter . This has increased my faith in the public school system, the staff and principal have truly outdone themselves !!!

I took day -1 with extreme excitement, overdid stuff and quickly realized that there was no way I could sustain my schedule. So it was all human on deck after this , KG came on board and suddenly life felt manageable.

How does our average schooling schedule look like ?

Waking up time and tasks

I am up at 7h30 am on average , I wake the kids at 8am . They have their dedicated tasks to do

– Make the bed

– Tidy up the room

– Brush the teeth

– Wash their faces

– Change from sleepwear

– Breakfast at 8:30

– Clear the dishwasher whilst breakfast gets ready

– Place dirty dishes into the washer before going to class

Curriculum

We have so far managed to start classes on 09:15 , on average . We have had both good and bad days

09:15 – 10:30 – English

10:30- 10:50- Play , water and bathroom time

10:50- 11:30- Life Skills

11:30-12:00- Afrikaans

12:00 – they sneak out for bathroom time or snack whilst KG is getting ready

12:15 – 13:00 – Mathematics

I think if we were teaching one child there would be more play and idle time . So since we are teaching both kids at the same time , this drags the speed of the process.

Content for the 4 year old

We got the resources along the days from creche for the little one . But the English lessons and life skills are so basic so I would bring her along in the sisters lesson

Where required I created some good content for her . Shapes , colors , animals , transportation. The topics are endless . My go to resource for ideas is https://ourkindafamily.com/ and Worksheets on Facebook !

Things got better as we received resources from her school and it’s been a smooth bliss ever since

So basically I knock off at 12 daily and quickly rush to prepare lunch because at 13:00 they always get their lunch . One of the reason I like this schedule is because it’s closely similar to what they do at school on a daily basis.

Some days KG starts first with Mathematics and I use that time to prepare lunch , disinfect the house but the routine does not move far off. Basic rule is come 13:00ish we are done with the formal school work !!

Play time and creativity

The girls like to see me play with them and seeing that light in their eyes is everything for me 😁😁. I am not as flexible as they are and they get impressed with the little things. I actually hurt my neck in a trampoline 😭😭😭but I continued to play πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈbeing mom .

I initially thought I would struggle with creativity for the games but I have since realized that they are the greatest source for the games. I sit back and ask them to introduce a game each day and it is honestly the best method.

I noticed that we haven’t done much artwork and this is something they love doing . I have been thinking of using leaves since they are falling to do creative stuff. I also have left over spray paint in the store room that I might just put into good use.

I did introduce some stuff like cutting from the newspaper to learn different letters of the alphabets and they got the lesson.

Exercising and stretching

I discovered that the girls are fantastic at coaching . Katlego used to do ballet and it’s something she loves and she has been coaching us on this. Kgaogelo is just an amazing freestyle dancer and she is a tough cookie , so we have been towing the line during her sessions. We do stretching and exercising as part of play time daily.

Extra murals

Katlego is enrolled for hockey , we have a few videos to go through and haven’t managed to get to them as yet. Kgaogelo is enrolled in a dance academy , we are on week two of her online dance classes. The nice thing about it is that the sister can join in and they have fun . They do this once a week in the afternoon.

Kgaogelo also does karate and we have just received videos that she can do from home.

And then there’s computer lessons that I don’t know where to begin and what to do πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ

Basically we can say the area of extra murals is an area of improvement and we will get through it seeing that the lockdown is now extended.

Book reading

This is another area of improvement and am not very proud to say I have never gotten this area right . Part of the English lesson is reading a book daily , kids need to learn to tell the story back to you and the six year old needs to learn how to formulate sentences and I am just failing at this dismally from the book reading context . Reading books are galore , dedication dololo. So I am very open to any tools in this area , amen .

Fear of Over scheduling

Why I try not to over schedule the kids is because I am hearing the voice of Dr Shefali in my head who encourages conscious parenting and I just want them to still be kids and right now honestly , I am not sure what a balanced picture looks like . So I figured they can play as much as they want and still keep to the schedule.

My don’t s

I have avoided over resourcing myself hence I only have two go to places, the lady who manages this blog https://ourkindafamily.com/ is fantastic and has 4 kids that are homeschooled on a permanent basis and has the same age group to my girls.

TV for kids remains to be from Friday until Sunday so nothing has changed there unless they watching it with us.

Do’s

I give myself permission to rest when I am tired and cannot do it on that day.

Connect the kids to their friends via video call. This has kept them excited to share with their friends and I can see they understand the COVID situation much better now and can explain it to the next person

The joys

I must confess , teaching our 4 year old writing her name from scratch and seeing her doing it without reference has been my proudest moment. The life skills lessons I give in class and then have them repeat them back to me as we interact in the house and seeing them taking ownership of those lessons , honestly it blows my mind . Teaching Afrikaans to the six year is also one of my proudest moments πŸ˜†

I don’t know about any other moms but not having the stress of the morning routine has brought about peace in my life . Does anyone relate to the morning rush ?

Getting myself ready

Getting the kids breakfast ready

Getting them ready , helping them eat because some days they just take forever

Forgetting the swimming bag and driving back to pick up after dropping the first one

Being on a lookout for the clock so that no ones gets an offense

Arriving at school and you forgot that it’s dress up day for the other

Dropping the kids at two different location before taking an hour drive to work

My old morning routine was stressful and to be able to do this without that stress has been aaaaaaaamaaazing and I am thankful for it . The pace in the morning is so so peaceful!!

I don’t miss my normal routine in this areaπŸ™πŸΎπŸ™πŸΎπŸ™πŸΎ

I am officially teacher mom and honestly I love it this way and very grateful to have witnessed it.

That being said , I salute the teachers and I would vote that they earn a decent salary any day !!

Using what we have to create a learning environment!!
I do put on some make up and lipstick ! Helps uplift my energy plus I just love taking things seriously 🀣 Papa teacher there

Hail storm – it excites the kids and mommy went to get some ice and the response 😁😁😁😁yeeeeey

Got them disinfecting their toys . This helped me through the process of identifying what’s available for use . Colors , shapes etc all those educational toys we buy but never used – mmhhnn they working now . Dusted them nicely and voila
Some resources we received from the school for the 4 year old !

Creativity – Our girls bedroom is coming along pretty well

I had renovating the girls bedroom as one of my 2019 resolution and now that we have made some progress I am very glad to share some tips here

  • Take your time – I did this project over six months and this allowed me to conceptualize the look , find the right products at reasonable prices and also give suppliers ample time to produce
  • Find reliable suppliers – the Facebook platform is amongst the best tools to use. Have a look at the pages reviews and look for consistency
  • Conceptualize – I love using Pinterest for all my ideas and I have been saving a few of my favorites over time and I used a lot to these concept to get to the final idea
  • Be decisive – don’t start discussions with suppliers until you have at least final two options – this saves you and the supplier time plus you don’t have to get ten quotations for the same kind of thing
  • Choose the supplier you want to work with- my factors were ability to deliver directly to my home or workplace and of course market related prices ( I wasn’t looking for anything above market price because it’s generic staff and material). You may want to discuss guarantees depending on the item , cost and durability
  • Lookout for import taxes – I was gullible and liked a product which I could only get overseas. I didn’t cover my research base well and I learned that import tax on that product was an arm and a leg

We still need a study desk and perhaps a tipee but here is why we got

Bunk bed , book shelf and dress stand from @myriadfurniture . They are available on Facebook

Pouffe is one of my favorite items in the room @Crafted did a stellar job in creating this colorful one for us . See their page on Facebook

The colorful rug – it is the most awaited item in the room and I just love Sonya Winners hand made rugs – check them on Facebook

Laundry basket and pink rabbit – Mr Price Home

The night light in white and door stopper – Takelot.com

The artwork on the wall was done by one of my favorite people. @Custom Paper

We also got creative with the girls artwork. And @framemasters did a stellar job framing these

Other accessories are books from Dischem and we also got water bottles to keep the girls warm . Other accessions are from Pick and pay

I hope you enjoyed this post and you love how this turned out !

Let me know how you allow creativity in your life to show

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Lunchboxes

Been serving hearts and fruits πŸ‰

Preparing lunch boxes for kids is not an easy task

And I am certainly up for the challenge. It’s about creating lasting memories for them , allowing them to have fun whilst having their food

Embracing my new body

No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead….
Forget about the past body
Forget about the size 28
It never knew what it meant to carry two babies
It had never stretched for two x nine months
It never fed two people over 30 months
It never endured two cesarean procedures
Forget about the past body it’s not the standard of what beautiful looks like
Forget the past because..
You are beautiful
You are enough
You are adequate
You are breathtaking
You are precious
You are worthy
Never look back to determine how beautiful you should be today. Your past body is never a measure nor a standard of your beauty….
You are a mighty warrior, you have stood the test of time. You have endured, emotionally, physically, mentally and all.
Giiiiiiirrrrrl, own your crown 🀴, with all that it comes with and forgive those who still expect you to look 18 at 34πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ. Abakwazi abakhuluma ngako
Ngoba umuhle, pho yini πŸ‘ŒπŸΎ
The goal is health plus fitness not my past πŸ™

Getting on with the routineΒ 

I have been going to the gym for a while now and I am looking forward to more sessions this September 

Being active has taught me some really good lessons 

My biggest lesson has been that I am CAPABLE 🀞🏾🀞🏾and I got a few take aways from my journey so far

1. The pain below my heart has reduced significantly 

2. My breathing has improved 

3. I am able to challenge myself to do some difficult exercises 

4. I realize how quick it takes for my body to adjust to a new routine, something I must take advantage of 

5. Staying healthy doesn’t seem so hard after all 

By the grace of God I have managed to do 5000 steps at home. This has contributed positively to my ability to run πŸƒ on a treadmill at the gym. The pedals on the stepper are very hard and needs endurance 

With over 15 days of 30 minutes exercise and more controlled diet my weight is still the same

This doesn’t worry me as my goal is to manage the stress, eat healthy food and take care of my biggest asset, my body. My weight is 70kg, 1 kg lessor from the starting point 

I decided to cut out one meal per day, and I chose the evening meal. I’m thinking I should do it for a 22 days and see how it goes 

I’m very proud to have done 1000 steps this evening, it feels great to sweat πŸ’¦ 


My daily routine now is as follows 

Be up at 5:15

Get ready for gym

Prepare Katlego 

Drop Katlego off at 6am

Arrive at the gym at 6:45

Exercise until 7:30

Shower and be at work by 8am

Leave work at 4pm, a struggle that I know I will overcome 

Be home by 5:30 latest 

Cook and serve by 7pm

Between arriving and serving I try to invest time with the girls by reading, coloring or unorganized fun. I also check the well being of our domestic helper

I also do laundry twice a week these days πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ

Then I Exercise for 20 minutes , 1000 steps

I sometimes wash dishes after the exercise 

I take a bath , hoping for the days when it will be long ones 

I prepare to sleep and spend time with my King

Lala land 

2017 a year of loosen upΒ 

This is how I view 2017
I was determined to go to church every Sunday, my first few attempts were so stressful. Kgaogelo would make it impossible to sit or stand. She would scream so much that my emotions would be so affected by it and that staying on would have me more stressed than edified 

I took a break…. a long one

I’m back at it now, two consecutive Sundays. The first one I was so late and did about 40 minutes in and the sermon was done. I got what I came for and that’s all that mattered.Last week I was early but I did about ten to twenty minutes outside, rocking her in her scream then I did the rest of the service in the mothers room with her on my back

I actually prefer her on my back and I have resolved that if that’s what it takes then so be it

My spirit is desperate for fellowship and Jesus Christ in the church. I must be willing to loosen up. I must be willing to take the stares from the ushers and be willing to say I don’t know to five different people asking me what’s wrong with her

I must be willing to listening to someone saying give her panado when I have no panado on site, needless to say I don’t find myself having panado needing moments at home, so I’m not used to it

The one thing I enjoy is the fact that I can rock up my jeans and flat shoes and a shirt to church, joys of modern society. This attire works wonders for me and I plan to stick to it for as long as I need to

Loosening up is a necessity if I’m going to lead a healthy life 

It’s also called being flexible. Nothing is perfect in life, I need to be grateful that my kids are healthy and not stress about how they get irritable and unsettled in church or at a restaurant sometimes. Very soon my kids will be old and leaving to pursue their callings….. I have learned that 12 years is not a very long time. 
All I need is to breathe, loosen up and live life to the best of my God given ability 

Last night menuΒ 

Last night I prepared BBQ chicken cooked in a bag, I love love BBQ chicken 

I served it with pasta , coslow and beetroot. I always keep these two in my fridge, KGs favorite 

I added some fried konje what’s this beef strips called πŸ˜†πŸ˜†fried in garlic sauce 

I love two meat types in my menu

I then baked vanilla cupcakes βœ…βœ…βœ…βœ…βœ…πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚the kisses and hugs my girls gave me aaaahπŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™. I had never used the sprinkles before and I just didn’t have the time to pin how they make them stick. I came up with an idea to take honey and water , rub over the muffin and then voaaalaπŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎ

I also put some jelly in the fridge for the weekend…. I love giving the girls the old school type of experiences πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ. I’ll propably get ultramel to add to it. I need more color though otherwise everything will be yellow ☝️

There’s a lot going on in my pictures which represent the life of a mother 

My daughter decided she’s done with her gum and just placed it right on my table, she says I can still eat it , it’s still sweet πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ

Then they asked for snacks and then saw muffins, then muffins took over. Juice was left there , close enough for someone to reach it 

I was also administrating the installation of the explorer 

I also had to fill forms to change our numbers at the security gate 

So I needed that coffee my dear πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ

Sleeping time not so easy

I think I spoke too soon about how great the sleeping time is going for us

It’s not going great for us anymore , we going through the emotions and feeling like we are neglecting our babies

Look changing a parten of almost four years of sharing the bedroom with our kids will not be an easy thing to do 

We miss them terribly and now we are having conversations of how are we going to build our bond together 

You see the routine has always been as follows 

I am up at 5:15 I get myself ready , easy because I go to the gym prior to work,then I prepare my 3 year old for Creche, I bath her myself and have always done so for all her school days, this year being her second year. We leave the house at 6am and I drop her at Creche by 6:10 latest.

Our youngest remains behind with our helper

Kg picks Katlego up at 5pm from the creche and they are home by 5:05 latest. I arrive home by 5:30 depending on the traffic 

Between 5:30 and 6:00 it’s usually time to settle in , greetings, changing our work clothes to our casual clothes. It’s lots of kisses, lots of pick ups , huggies and just finding out about each other’s days. It’s the time I use to defrost something if I forgot to take it out in the morning, which is many times πŸ˜†

Then back to the routine, ausi Sarah steps in, takes the kids for a bath, I prepare dinner and by 7:30 pm we are all done. These days I do the laundry in between my cooking πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ

Some days once they are done with their bath, I squeeze in lessons, from drawing, coloring, counting etc. I always keep the lessons to a maximum of 30 minutes. This so that I don’t get overwhelmed and to keep them excited for more the next time. 

Usually ausi Sara gives them their meals before we have ours. This has worked out very well as we prefer for them to eat pap. Kg doesn’t eat pap so having them eat before us sort of allows them not to crave what eat later on

Also by the time we eat, they always have bites of our food as their dessert…. makes me miss my dad because I would always stand next to him when he was eating pap and amasi. He always yelled out “kanti awusuthi na” or he would ask my mom “lomntwana ubulawa yindlala na” and I have learned that there’s just a beautiful feeling that I got when I could pick a spoon and dig in with my dad

And so I love it when my kids choose the tomatoes on my plate, they love beetroot, carrots, tomatoes , spinach and they will finish my food before I even get to eat. I just took it as my other way of helping my weight loss project πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€. It’s a beautiful experience I must say. At the back of my mind I do wish to have a formal dining with the family every night since I love to cook, but until then , out informal dinner setting purely reminds me of home and I appreciate it 

Once dinner is done which is consistently by 7:30 pm I either do the dishes or ausi Sarah takes care of them

I will either continue with the laundry these days and the cartoon channel will be on. Prior to the change in bedroom I would take the time to prepare the bedroom for sleeping time. One team on the floor which must be made comfortable with lots of blankets πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€no spongeπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ. This is the easy part, picking up the blankets in the morning is something I didn’t look forward to and honestly I did leave it for our helper most of the times. This is one part that the new sleeping arrangement has eliminated, a plus for meπŸ‘πŸΎ

By 8pm everybody is usually cuddling up on the bed , which would be me and Kgaogelo and Kg and Katlego would be on the floor. Once the lights are switched off, it takes less than ten minutes for everybody to start snoring 

Kg wakes Katlego about twice at night to go make a wee. Then at 5:30 she’s up getting ready for school 

There are so many memories and crazy things that we miss. Sometimes Katlego will want to sleep by me, yet in the middle of the night she will crawl back to papa. The feeling of having them so close to us gave us the feeling of being complete and whole I guess 

Even when one is struggling to sleep for whatever reason , I miss saying my night prayers and seeing how calm and peaceful they get and instantly go back to sleep 

I am grateful for the path of growing and I’m appreciative of the significant changes this has brought 

1. I don’t have to switch off the lights so soon just so that someone can go to sleep, this has helped me throw in one chapter of a book I have been struggling to make time to read

2. I have since managed to catch up 1 day with the Bible study program that I had missed for more than 365 days, I’m not obsessed with it but it’s good habit for my soul to have spiritual nourishment 

3. Yesterday I flossed and brushed my teeth before going to bed …. honestly I’m not going to say when last I did that πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ

4. I wake up being sooo well rested and I am grateful for a good night sleep, I had completely forgotten how that even feels like 

5. My morning is much more calm, I’m not tripping over blankets, shoes and toys, my bedroom is looking much better in the morning and I have managed to make it up each morning as a result 

6. I realize that Kg and I have extra time to catch up and have a great conversation and more πŸ˜†πŸ˜†πŸ˜† πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

7. I’m seeing an opportunity to have time with Jesus , either at night or in the fact. It’s been four years without 

8. I now understand how such an arrangement is beneficial for a studying parent. For the longest time Kgaogelo would wake up every time I get up, I learned she sleeps through the night now πŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎ

This is what we are mindful of

1. That relating to our kids must have more informal settings which being in the same bedroom provided for. From the time of coming back from work to eating it feels so formal that one feels you can’t even laugh out loud because you are on a schedule πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ..,, we need to figure out what this means for us 

2. Bedtime stories were easy to do when they are right beside me , it requires a lot more effort to do it when I’m not in the warm blanket or just the way I’m used to. In fact I have not introduced it in the new arrangement 

3. We want to make sure that Katlego continues with her potty training, which we are surprised that she has voluntarily woke up by herself and went did the wee wee 😳😳😳😳😳. So far the roof leaked once… potty training requires ausi Sarah to wake up , which deprives her of her sleep but it seems it might not be so if she manages to wake up by herself 

4. Kgaogelo shares a bed with ausi Sarah and we know Kgaogelo to be an early bird. I’m realizing that it could have been made by the fact that she knew we were around and off course the noise we made when preparing ourselves. For three days Kgaogelo woke up after 6 amπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈthat’s a first 

5. We are mindful not to overburdened ausi Sara, the kids are ours and she’s here to help. Thankfully we have never required of her to be up in the wee hours of the morning. With the kids in the other bedroom it’s even better because Kgaogelo is usually asleep when we leave. In the old routine Kgaogelo would be up which meant she also had to be up to mind her. We can now let them sleep and only wake up once they are ready 

This process has taught me a lot. The fact that Katlego woke up to make wee by herself, the fact that Kgaogelo can sleep through the night until past six and finally they look happy and smiling when they see us. The kids are fine 

Change always fosters growth !!!!!! 

I didn’t know that they were capable of doing all this so soon

Dear God 

Help us raise our kids to know you and live a life in reverence of your name 

In Jesus name, amen 

Sleeping time

Sleeping time is becoming more fun in our house 

I can definitely say the three weeks apart from the kids is giving us greater benefits than anticipated 

The first week we tried having the girls sleep in the second bedroom, we won with the toddler and not with the three year old. Instead she remained in our bedroom in a cot. This week we tried a different approach, the first night was a no option approach and peer pressure strategic tac team via younger sister, she gave in and joined her

Katlego is a very easily agreeable child, the first thing she said in the morning was that she didn’t sleep in our bedroom. We made sure that we celebrated the moment with clapping of hands , loud screams and excitement, the next celebration was that she didn’t make a wee, this was a call for a pick up , spin around and a big high five!!! This also made feel more confident to let go as we didn’t want her to regress on this part

Since then, I have been tucking my girls in their single beds every night and I must say they make it so easy for me. The second night my toddler was telling me to go, my ego was bruised at how quickly they achieved their independence. I dragged myself out of their room

Tonight they asked for their dolls, each night is eventful and I am so impressed how quickly they adapt . I had to kiss their babies good night and say all the glorious cute things they needed me to say , just so their babies are at peaceπŸ˜†πŸ˜†

I certainly miss their kicking and turning at night, I miss the struggle over blankets since they never want any over their body. I miss waking up and seeing their faces first thing in the morning.I have been having these mornings for 3years 8m of my life and letting them go it’s too damn hard. I think having these moments on weekends make our times together so special …. this weekend will be our second attempt of the model

I am however very grateful for getting my sleep back. I had not slept like this in four + years if one includes the nine months of being pregnant. I appreciate the season of growing in parenthood and I must say it is necessary 

On the other hand , I’m loving this free time I get to have with KG, to be back in his arms again, owh my goodness I missed that , so glad that I have it again 😝😝😝
In the meantime…. it’s sleeping time 😴😴😴😴😴