2019 Resolution

In 2017 I made a resolution to do something different, find a new habit that will bring excitement to my life

I was concerned about my mental health . Worried about what I was observing in myself and people around me and I decided I need to find ways to take It easy ….. or in the words of present over perfect “ I wanted to lay low “

I decided that I will make the time to have a cup of coffee ☕️ every morning…. this was a new thing for me and before I committed I made peace that it could mean I lead with stained teeth 🦷….. if you know me … you would know that I pay attention to amazinyo nam angaz why 🤔🤔🤔ewabantu futhi ukuthi amhlophe kangakanani and I would gage ewam after theirs ….. very wrong but keee 🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️

This in part was a journey of letting go of perfectionism as an attribute or something of value …. to try lead life from a degree of relaxed state of mind and to try reduce my workaholic habits

I wanted to change the habit of storming in to the office and be clicking on emails and getting right on to it

I wanted to be at ease …. take a walk to say hello to my team and colleagues

There was even a time I wished I smoked because that would force me to step out at least four times a day 🙇🏽‍♀️

Needless to say I attempted it and todate I am making choices that will enable a much more better inner human being and a better state of mind

I am finding that a new job is an even better platform to introduce new habits for me . Most importantly to teach my new environment about my new pace and as much as I try , somedays I still fail dismally , but I am going to keep try until I get it right

My intention is to ensure that I do not overcommit myself ….. pressure to impress …. pressure to do well to excel etc etc I am now grown and maturing enough to know that Rome wasn’t built overnight. I can’t do it alone , no matter the passion, commitment and excitement . I must rely on a team and I never ever want to over commit because I will be setting myself up for depression and failure… But most importantly I have nothing to prove …. I am excellent at what I do and I have the grace and favor of God by my side

The most amazing fact that I am accepting is I am willing to fail outwardly i.e career than to fail at my soul , my marriage and raising my kids

In 2018 I made a simple resolution…. which was to not go for a proffessional photo shoot 🤳🏾yeeeah I am a photojunkie and thankfully I won …. I was curious to know if I would be able to say no to myself …. nam angazi but sengajwayela ukuhlala ngizitesta for discipline into yasenkonzweni …. ukuzithiba 🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️

I think with pregnancies and all I was accustomed to at least 3 x sessions a year and exploring with different service providers … I consoled myself with the fact that we were having a wedding and there will be plenty of click click for me

Coincidentally I started gardening as a habit and I am loving it so far

2019 I have a simple quest …. I want to cook gourmet dishes !!!! I am a foodie and an explorer and this year if it can be eaten…. I want to know how to cook it 😬😬😬🥗

I want to excel in baking cookies that hold a lot of memories for me… my moms baskeydas and sis Kate’s cookies 🍪

Keeping my life simple helps me invent a better me and the person that I am meant to be

2019 sekangaqala ke manje

Friday 18 Jan 19

I have decided to make every Friday Africa Day!!!!

This makes me look forward to Friday and I start Monday’s with a unique form of excitement

Monate waiketsetsa

So here’s to my 2nd Friday in a new job 😬😬😬😬

# farmstothepresidency

What’s my sentence

Following a brief interview from Mr Pink , I have decided to write down my sentence

This has been burning like fire in my bones

Dear Lord I give myself away so you can use me .

What’s my sentence?

 I want to use my influence to be of service, to disrupt poverty, inequality and unemployment 

       Passion 

 To show passion, fire and commitment to what I do, no matter whom I am doing it with and what I am doing it for 

Action 

 To get the job done!!!! No matter the size or challenge or the time it takes me. See it through! Signed, sealed and delivered!

Vulnerability 

 Allow my true self to be seen, deeply seen and known. Have the courage to say ï don’t know” and be willing to learn. Always be honest about how I feel, even if it is not exciting or even if it’s unpopular. Ask when I need help and cry when I feel like doing so’. 


Excellence 

 Prioritise excellence over perfection.


“Perfectionism is a self-destructive and addictive belief system that fuels this primary thought: If I look perfect, and do everything perfectly, I can avoid or minimize the painful feelings of shame, judgment, and blame.” 
 Brené Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are

Excellence is not a set level of quality or perfectionism. It’s an ever-changing dynamic in both our personal journey and the collective journey of our teams.

It’s about growth and maturity. Excellence should be a moving target of sorts. The quality of your craft and serving today should not be the same as the quality of your serving yesterday. It should be increasing and moving forward, not stagnating!”Matt – Hillsong.com blogger

Purpose statement: To pave the way for those coming behind me and those ahead to gain access to more seats at the table 

Measure: Top 100 most influential people in South Africa by year xxxx

Justice must be served for all South Africans and all those who live in it

New office new look

Everyone who knows me knows I love open plans

People are at the center of what I do daily and sharing that energy keeps me high

In 2019 I am learning that maybe it’s okay to accept an office and adapt

I made a decision to bring a bit of my personality and a bit of style within the space and color that I have been given

I love the progress and I will post the final view in few weeks to come

Conversations with the pilot

Random discussions with the pilot
Me:I assume you are the pilot?
Pilot:Yes mam
Me:Why aren’t you flying ?( this question though … I mean dhaa 🙈🙈)
Pilot:I am on my way to JhB then I will be manning the flight to Congo mam 
Me:Where do you stay?
Pilot:I live in Fourways mam and where do you stay 
Me:I answer
Me:So how long have you been a pilot ?
Pilot:It’s been 30 years mam 
Me: woow 👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿
Me: Please tell me in simple terms why you would encourage anyone to be a pilot?
Pilot:Public Service mam, I take people across the world for meetings ,for pleasure and vacations. I enable people to reach their destinations, I do my best to do that in safest possible way and that gives me pleasure mam
I’m stunned, day made 
Done
I don’t know where I got this Oprah character in me. I learn through conversations 
 

Dear new world

Dear Budgeting, Financial Reporting , Internal Controls, Payroll , Creditors, Bank , Cash , Revenue, Debt Management , Internal External Audit, Financial Systems and more it has been great!!!
You have served me well and I too have served you with exceptional commitment and pride. 
It has been 12 years of grace, what a full circle 👌🏾👌🏾👌🏾
With gratitude I bow 🙇 I am humbled. There are no words to express my gratitude!!!
Good bye
Dear new world , let the games begin

Thank you Lord 

Dear God
Thank you for reminding me that I am part of the plan, even though I forgot many times through the process
I take this award and I am humbled. It means a lot more to me because I almost died and yes I wanted to quit I didn’t know that someone very powerful is watching, someone saw me 🙏
I almost died but I made it 
Tough in the boardroom , love in the corridors 
I’m here to serve
These two awards will always hold a special place in my heart. Exiting on a high note 🍾🍾💃🏾💃🏾
Oskabahemisa 

Oskabafa chance 
Jesus Christ be glorified my Lord 🙏🙏🙏🙏

Dear Nomusa 

Just combined a few notes to self and posted on the cabinet for my daily view …. 
A good way to start a new challenge
Dear Nomusa,
You are INCREDIBLE

You CAN CREATE your own happiness

Mistakes are GOOD, learn from them

DON’T be afraid to DEFY convention

Do what you can

With what you have

Where you are 
#Journeyofapublicservant

#encouragingmyselfwithinmyself

Everyone can be great 

3 Posts I am crossing over with to 2018. Printed and placed on the wall.
Everybody can be great … because anybody can serve. You don’t have to have a college degree to serve. You don’t have to make your subject and verb agree to serve. You only need a heart full of grace. A soul generated by love.” 

Dr Martin Luther King Jnr
“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.” 
Dr Martin Luther King Jnr
I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.

Dr Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela
#Iamheretoserve

#fromafarmtothepresidency