#TGIF – 7 June

It is a fact that my mid thirties are without a doubt my mid life crushing. The air feels so thin in many days and many times I may feel like I am gasping for air . The Trust journey is for me a whole lot about letting go of the person I am supposed to be . It seems to me that this is my biggest challenge on a daily basis

So there are 3 things that have stuck in my head on how to be open to trust , most importantly to trust God

The first one is a quote ” to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best , night and day to make you everybody else – means to fight the HARDEST battle which any human being can fight ” I felt like someone truly gets me after seeing this on Ms Huffington’s Instagram page …. to wrestle with the outer world versus the inner world seems to me like a process that ought to happen for me to reach my maximum impact

However this process and this battle is hard , it is very hard

The second quote is about the damages of holding on versus letting go ….. and so I can see that holding on to my ideals , holding on the pain and the past , holding on to the little girl dreamland which no longer serves me is doing more damage to me and the person I am becoming

My third one is a song that my dear sister shared with me , I sang this since Sunday school and it seems that I can relate to it more now because as I grow older I realize all I can do really is to ” Through it all I have learned to trust in Jesus I have learned to trust in God, through it all” . Growing older requires a lot of courage and a lot of trusting that my creator has a purpose for me and each day I must let go in order to open up for all of me

Dear Lord

I surrender my future to you. Teach me how to trust you in the midst of fear and uncertainty

In Jesus name I pray

I am grateful to have served as an MC in the Associates dinner last week. It was such a pivotal moment for me and a revival to my being . I was raised by Evangelists and it had been a while being in a presence of Missionaries and giants who serve the world at such a scale. I’m eternally grateful and I am so hopeful about the future , hopeful about the world and the revival in the belief in the goodness of human beings

I am inspired by this post from Oprah ” Look at how many times you were worried and upset – and now you are here today . You made it , you are going to be okay” I watched this as she read a letter to her younger self and I am inspired to do the same . I have come a long way , a very long dusty rocky muddy clay long way and yes look at me ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿคž๐Ÿพ…. sometimes the little girl in me needs a pat in the back …. it’s okay to take a moment to say well done to myself ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿพ

Fun was spending time with my best friend at MzansiBride fitting corsets with the assistance of four women ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ . Doing decor for my girls bedroom was fun and I am excited to see my creative side coming alive ๐Ÿ˜€


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