2019 Resolution

In 2017 I made a resolution to do something different, find a new habit that will bring excitement to my life

I was concerned about my mental health . Worried about what I was observing in myself and people around me and I decided I need to find ways to take It easy ….. or in the words of present over perfect “ I wanted to lay low “

I decided that I will make the time to have a cup of coffee ☕️ every morning…. this was a new thing for me and before I committed I made peace that it could mean I lead with stained teeth 🦷….. if you know me … you would know that I pay attention to amazinyo nam angaz why 🤔🤔🤔ewabantu futhi ukuthi amhlophe kangakanani and I would gage ewam after theirs ….. very wrong but keee 🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️

This in part was a journey of letting go of perfectionism as an attribute or something of value …. to try lead life from a degree of relaxed state of mind and to try reduce my workaholic habits

I wanted to change the habit of storming in to the office and be clicking on emails and getting right on to it

I wanted to be at ease …. take a walk to say hello to my team and colleagues

There was even a time I wished I smoked because that would force me to step out at least four times a day 🙇🏽‍♀️

Needless to say I attempted it and todate I am making choices that will enable a much more better inner human being and a better state of mind

I am finding that a new job is an even better platform to introduce new habits for me . Most importantly to teach my new environment about my new pace and as much as I try , somedays I still fail dismally , but I am going to keep try until I get it right

My intention is to ensure that I do not overcommit myself ….. pressure to impress …. pressure to do well to excel etc etc I am now grown and maturing enough to know that Rome wasn’t built overnight. I can’t do it alone , no matter the passion, commitment and excitement . I must rely on a team and I never ever want to over commit because I will be setting myself up for depression and failure… But most importantly I have nothing to prove …. I am excellent at what I do and I have the grace and favor of God by my side

The most amazing fact that I am accepting is I am willing to fail outwardly i.e career than to fail at my soul , my marriage and raising my kids

In 2018 I made a simple resolution…. which was to not go for a proffessional photo shoot 🤳🏾yeeeah I am a photojunkie and thankfully I won …. I was curious to know if I would be able to say no to myself …. nam angazi but sengajwayela ukuhlala ngizitesta for discipline into yasenkonzweni …. ukuzithiba 🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️

I think with pregnancies and all I was accustomed to at least 3 x sessions a year and exploring with different service providers … I consoled myself with the fact that we were having a wedding and there will be plenty of click click for me

Coincidentally I started gardening as a habit and I am loving it so far

2019 I have a simple quest …. I want to cook gourmet dishes !!!! I am a foodie and an explorer and this year if it can be eaten…. I want to know how to cook it 😬😬😬🥗

I want to excel in baking cookies that hold a lot of memories for me… my moms baskeydas and sis Kate’s cookies 🍪

Keeping my life simple helps me invent a better me and the person that I am meant to be

2019 sekangaqala ke manje

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