Dear Baba
Today is your birthday and I am here to say happy birthday . Happy 80th birthday Baba Lungelo
Missing you comes in waves and today I am drowning
It feels like yesterday when we said goodbye. It feels like yesterday when you were just saying you have given this world all that you came with, I miss you dearly
On the day that I walked down the aisle, I missed your hand and I missed your presence. I am however grateful for the two moments that reminded me so much of you and warmed my heart β€οΈ
I discovered that Vusi Nova sings Nkosi Sihlangene PLUS Oyahalalela π€π€π€in one song. I had been planning to walk down the aisle with Oyahalalela and I needed something that I would do or have on this day to remind me of you
So when I found this song with the two arrangement in one omg time stood still for me. I cried tears of joy and this was my miracle , a gift from you to me … so Baba on this day I played your song and it will forever be etched in my heart , my video and my memory that somehow I honored you πππ
Being a farm girl that I am …I had requested to take pictures with the Nguni cows π on the day . The plan was to take pictures at 16:30 as advised that itβs around their normal grazing time around the chapel
On this day, the cows arrived much earlier just after 10 am and the photographer ran to my room to get me ready !!! Again time stood still , when this one cow came directly towards me , it stood and gave a posture as if it knew what was expected of it
Ntokozo whispered thatβs umkhulu Mamncane
Again , time stood still πππ and I took it all in
Browsing through the pictures, seeing the beauty of uMama walking me down the aisle, opening my veil and handing me over to uBhuti is such an emotional moment for me
You raised your sons very well Baba and they did an amazing job to present me kwa Malatji . I am very grateful for their love and support
Ever since this day passed I miss you more , I talk about you to my daughters daily . I mourn your loss again , I cry each time the song plays and I know we will meet again and I cry over the fact that you were not there πππ
I missed you I miss you π
Your loving daughter
Mano β€οΈπππ
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