Dear Baba

Dear Baba

Today is your birthday and I am here to say happy birthday . Happy 80th birthday Baba Lungelo

Missing you comes in waves and today I am drowning

It feels like yesterday when we said goodbye. It feels like yesterday when you were just saying you have given this world all that you came with, I miss you dearly

On the day that I walked down the aisle, I missed your hand and I missed your presence. I am however grateful for the two moments that reminded me so much of you and warmed my heart ❀️

I discovered that Vusi Nova sings Nkosi Sihlangene PLUS Oyahalalela πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ€”in one song. I had been planning to walk down the aisle with Oyahalalela and I needed something that I would do or have on this day to remind me of you

So when I found this song with the two arrangement in one omg time stood still for me. I cried tears of joy and this was my miracle , a gift from you to me … so Baba on this day I played your song and it will forever be etched in my heart , my video and my memory that somehow I honored you πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

Being a farm girl that I am …I had requested to take pictures with the Nguni cows πŸ„ on the day . The plan was to take pictures at 16:30 as advised that it’s around their normal grazing time around the chapel

On this day, the cows arrived much earlier just after 10 am and the photographer ran to my room to get me ready !!! Again time stood still , when this one cow came directly towards me , it stood and gave a posture as if it knew what was expected of it

Ntokozo whispered that’s umkhulu Mamncane

Again , time stood still πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™ and I took it all in

Browsing through the pictures, seeing the beauty of uMama walking me down the aisle, opening my veil and handing me over to uBhuti is such an emotional moment for me

You raised your sons very well Baba and they did an amazing job to present me kwa Malatji . I am very grateful for their love and support

Ever since this day passed I miss you more , I talk about you to my daughters daily . I mourn your loss again , I cry each time the song plays and I know we will meet again and I cry over the fact that you were not there 😭😭😭

I missed you I miss you 😘

Your loving daughter

Mano β€οΈπŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

#livingthroughgrief

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