Lunchboxes

Been serving hearts and fruits 🍉

Preparing lunch boxes for kids is not an easy task

And I am certainly up for the challenge. It’s about creating lasting memories for them , allowing them to have fun whilst having their food

2019 Resolution

In 2017 I made a resolution to do something different, find a new habit that will bring excitement to my life

I was concerned about my mental health . Worried about what I was observing in myself and people around me and I decided I need to find ways to take It easy ….. or in the words of present over perfect “ I wanted to lay low “

I decided that I will make the time to have a cup of coffee ☕️ every morning…. this was a new thing for me and before I committed I made peace that it could mean I lead with stained teeth 🦷….. if you know me … you would know that I pay attention to amazinyo nam angaz why 🤔🤔🤔ewabantu futhi ukuthi amhlophe kangakanani and I would gage ewam after theirs ….. very wrong but keee 🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️

This in part was a journey of letting go of perfectionism as an attribute or something of value …. to try lead life from a degree of relaxed state of mind and to try reduce my workaholic habits

I wanted to change the habit of storming in to the office and be clicking on emails and getting right on to it

I wanted to be at ease …. take a walk to say hello to my team and colleagues

There was even a time I wished I smoked because that would force me to step out at least four times a day 🙇🏽‍♀️

Needless to say I attempted it and todate I am making choices that will enable a much more better inner human being and a better state of mind

I am finding that a new job is an even better platform to introduce new habits for me . Most importantly to teach my new environment about my new pace and as much as I try , somedays I still fail dismally , but I am going to keep try until I get it right

My intention is to ensure that I do not overcommit myself ….. pressure to impress …. pressure to do well to excel etc etc I am now grown and maturing enough to know that Rome wasn’t built overnight. I can’t do it alone , no matter the passion, commitment and excitement . I must rely on a team and I never ever want to over commit because I will be setting myself up for depression and failure… But most importantly I have nothing to prove …. I am excellent at what I do and I have the grace and favor of God by my side

The most amazing fact that I am accepting is I am willing to fail outwardly i.e career than to fail at my soul , my marriage and raising my kids

In 2018 I made a simple resolution…. which was to not go for a proffessional photo shoot 🤳🏾yeeeah I am a photojunkie and thankfully I won …. I was curious to know if I would be able to say no to myself …. nam angazi but sengajwayela ukuhlala ngizitesta for discipline into yasenkonzweni …. ukuzithiba 🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️

I think with pregnancies and all I was accustomed to at least 3 x sessions a year and exploring with different service providers … I consoled myself with the fact that we were having a wedding and there will be plenty of click click for me

Coincidentally I started gardening as a habit and I am loving it so far

2019 I have a simple quest …. I want to cook gourmet dishes !!!! I am a foodie and an explorer and this year if it can be eaten…. I want to know how to cook it 😬😬😬🥗

I want to excel in baking cookies that hold a lot of memories for me… my moms baskeydas and sis Kate’s cookies 🍪

Keeping my life simple helps me invent a better me and the person that I am meant to be

2019 sekangaqala ke manje

Sad reality

Accepting that people change

Accepting that divorce might be one of the most kindest of things a married person can give to themselves

Being kind to self and to who God made you to be

Might include this painful but necessary decision

It’s very sad 😞

Birds of the same feathers flock together

Dear God

For the longest time I believed that birds of the same feathers flock together

It is not until recent that I realized how misguide my belief was

I believed that if I hung out with the same birds who finished their degrees, that I too would finish mine . That if they got an instant job , I too would follow suite, that if they drove an expensive car , I too would be driving something to the effect.

I also thought flocking together meant husbands, houses , kids and that by the fact that we all desired these we all would get these at the same time and if not we would fast pray and ask for deliverance and forgiveness on whatever it was blocking us from these earthly blessings

I realize now how naive and childish I have been

I have stayed , focused , failed a million times , but picked myself up for the dream

I realize now that what started with good intentions could become a devils ground for envy

I realize now that all I needed and desired is a space to belong. A space to be welcome. A space where my biggest desire is to be seen and be truly seen

Dear God

I am happy to announce that I have been chasing my friends dream . Help me realize that whilst bad company corrupts, good company does not guarantee same gift same prophecy and same blessings . Help me identify motivation versus competition and help me choose your will for my life

Help me realize that chasing my own dream is why you created me

Chasing my destiny is why you open the doors that you have for me

Help me understand that I don’t belong to this world but to you .

And that it’s in you that I truly belong

Signed

Innocent soul

2019 What am I all about

Dear God

This year I stop chasing the dreams that are not meant for me

I stop chasing the dreams meant for my sisters

And I focus on inventing the person I am meant to be

I want to pay attention to the voice

I want to pay attention to who I am meant to be

By Gods design

This year I say yes to taking bold decisions towards taking better care of myself mentally

I choose the one I have been waiting for

I choose to look up to the hills

From where cometh my help

Signed

Openheart

Reflections

I am here today to allow God to intervene in my insecurities

I am here opening up for Him to create in me a clean heart

I am here for His will to be done

Today we invent the one He created

We open up to the direction of the Holiest one

The One and Only God and Creator of heaven and earth

The past years have been about healing the child in me . Child you are healed

Now we invent the person you were truly meant to be

Here’s to leading your best life

Here’s to owning the pain

Here’s to loving the scars

Here’s to the sweet voices and soft kisses

Here’s to love ❤️

Loving yourself through this journey and loving God your creator

I am here to serve

I say yes Lord

I’ll say yes, Lord, yes
To your will and to your way
I’ll say yes, Lord, yes
I will trust you and obey
When your Spirit speaks to me
With my whole heart I’ll agree
And my answer will be yes, Lord, yes

Dear God

I say yes

I receive the call upon my life and I surrender to your will

Help me choose you always

Friday 18 Jan 19

I have decided to make every Friday Africa Day!!!!

This makes me look forward to Friday and I start Monday’s with a unique form of excitement

Monate waiketsetsa

So here’s to my 2nd Friday in a new job 😬😬😬😬

# farmstothepresidency

What’s my sentence

Following a brief interview from Mr Pink , I have decided to write down my sentence

This has been burning like fire in my bones

Dear Lord I give myself away so you can use me .

What’s my sentence?

 I want to use my influence to be of service, to disrupt poverty, inequality and unemployment 

       Passion 

 To show passion, fire and commitment to what I do, no matter whom I am doing it with and what I am doing it for 

Action 

 To get the job done!!!! No matter the size or challenge or the time it takes me. See it through! Signed, sealed and delivered!

Vulnerability 

 Allow my true self to be seen, deeply seen and known. Have the courage to say ï don’t know” and be willing to learn. Always be honest about how I feel, even if it is not exciting or even if it’s unpopular. Ask when I need help and cry when I feel like doing so’. 


Excellence 

 Prioritise excellence over perfection.


“Perfectionism is a self-destructive and addictive belief system that fuels this primary thought: If I look perfect, and do everything perfectly, I can avoid or minimize the painful feelings of shame, judgment, and blame.” 
 Brené Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are

Excellence is not a set level of quality or perfectionism. It’s an ever-changing dynamic in both our personal journey and the collective journey of our teams.

It’s about growth and maturity. Excellence should be a moving target of sorts. The quality of your craft and serving today should not be the same as the quality of your serving yesterday. It should be increasing and moving forward, not stagnating!”Matt – Hillsong.com blogger

Purpose statement: To pave the way for those coming behind me and those ahead to gain access to more seats at the table 

Measure: Top 100 most influential people in South Africa by year xxxx

Justice must be served for all South Africans and all those who live in it