Looking back, my life changed at the age of 13. At this age I made a few significant decisions which set the course for my life.
- After receiving Christ as my Lord and saviour, I desired, as per the scripture to the altar call, to be that special bread, preserved for special use
- I then made a decision to remain pure, together with this, I made a mental note, I will not have a boyfriend until I am 17
I spent the next four years in church, I went to prayer from 5am, and I prayed and prayed. I went to children’s church every work day after school. I learned to interpret the scriptures and the spirt of God was at work. Looking at that part of my life now, I see that the hand of the Lord was at work.
So each night, we would have a programme and the church had a practise that each one must come with a testimony every day. We were encouraged that our testimony must have a basis from the scripture. The testimonies needed to be thanking God for what He has done in that day or week. In short, the church was teaching me the following
- Gratitude – find something to be grateful for each day
- Scripture reading – relating my life to scripture and memorising the word
The time for testimony was taken very seriously and I also made sure that I partake once a week, either in the girl’s service or the youth service. This really did a great job to my self -esteem and understanding of who God says I am.
From the age of 13, I could have not had food that day and I would go to church and say the word of God says God is Jehovah Rapha, God my provider. For every challenging situation, the word of God was there. If I was sad and needed to cry and I felt no one would understand, I learned about Hannah, who poured her heart in prayer, to such an extent that the priest thought she was drunk. I learned to cry in the spirit, for a good 8 years, when I prayed, I cried. Prayer was more than just bringing my cares and burdens, prayer became my therapy.
After praying, at the early hours of the morning, I stood up and believed that God will take care of whatever it is that was bothering me.
When I was desperately in need, I knew God was with me. I literally took God at His word. I still believe that He is not man to can lie
These confessions trained my brain to stay grounded in the word. I spoke life and I believed life. The word of God saturated in my bones, it was my life. I believed and imagined His word being fire in my bones and yes, that it was.
I identified with two scriptures
- Joshua 1
- Psalm 139
I was assured that He will be with me, I was also assured that His plan about me, is beyond what my eyes can see, because He knew me, before my parents even conceived me, my days were written in the book of life. This knowledge kept me. This knowledge comforted me.
Age 13 also set me on a course of keeping a journal. I was taught through the word, that “write your vision down, though it tarry, it will surely come to pass” so I started writing my thoughts down. In most of our quarterly meetings and special events, I started noting key points from the message that I needed to remember.
It was at the age of 13, that the Secondary School did a motivation day for us. There I met the words, “if it’s to be, it’s up to me”. These stuck with me and God set me on a course of a divine life.
My most humbling moment was at the same age, standing in front of the congregation in one of the mid-week services, sharing my testimony. I had read about kings of Israel, I had noted that God chose Kings, regardless of age. The story of David fascinated me, he was the seventh child, like me, he was the youngest , like me, with a strong desire to be used by God; I testified that, although I am 13, I do believe that I can be used by God. If I serve the same God of David, the same God can use me.
This inspired a word of prophecy in the church, a lady stood up and spoke over me, and I still get chills when I think back to that evening. She spoke that God says, He will use me to touch the world, what I was declaring through my testimony, was being confirmed about the depth and extent to which God would use me. The most amazing thing was, as she spoke, I knew that she was telling the truth, nothing sounded new to my ears and my spirit. Everything she said, I knew that to be the truth of who I was to be or who I was becoming. In that moment I confirmed that my calling has the people at the centre of it. I was blessed.
Time of change
A lot changed for me at this age. I started on anew path for my life. I was a Christian and not afraid. I lived for my family and my community. I changed my words, my thoughts and I was born again. I woke up early, prayed each morning and night, I watched the words that came out of my mouth. I watched the company I keep, I watched who speaks to my ears. I focused and had great intent in all I did. I even stopped to carelessly wet myself in bed …at 13
Time of destiny
The age 13 set me on a course for my destiny, I knew who I was and I never doubted it. God assured me. I went for gold
I was 13 when my teacher told me about Chartered Accountancy profession, I then set my heart on the course for the profession.
Time to start again
13 was the time to start again. My family experienced no physical fights, the arguments subsided and life was on a different path
I was 13 when my eldest brother got a permanent job
I was 13 when the local municipality installed electricity in my community
I was13 when my brother bought us our first ever fridge
There was hope in the political sphere of the community
South Africa was 2 years into democracy
Here is a typical schedule I had from 13 to 17
- Monday – a day of fasting and prayer – this I complied and did faithfully for the most of my life
- Tuesday – a cell group meeting – which I attended faithfully, it was always nice to go into other people’s house and to share a prayer
- Wednesday – a girls service – I participated by being a chorus leader most of the times
- Thursday – a youth service – this was always on fire
- Friday – men’s service, I seldom went to this one
- Saturdays – monthly, quarterly meetings, outdoor evangelism and 14h00 choir practice
- Sunday – 10 am service and 3 pm service
Monday to Thursday from 3pm, I went to children;s church, by age 16 I had started teaching the children’s church 🙂
1996 , a year of destiny!
7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lordlooks at the heart.”
1 So he asked Jesse, “Are these all the sons you have?”
“There is still the youngest,” Jesse answered. “He is tending the sheep.”
Samuel said, “Send for him; we will not sit down until he arrives.”