2017 a year of loosen upΒ 

This is how I view 2017
I was determined to go to church every Sunday, my first few attempts were so stressful. Kgaogelo would make it impossible to sit or stand. She would scream so much that my emotions would be so affected by it and that staying on would have me more stressed than edified 

I took a break…. a long one

I’m back at it now, two consecutive Sundays. The first one I was so late and did about 40 minutes in and the sermon was done. I got what I came for and that’s all that mattered.Last week I was early but I did about ten to twenty minutes outside, rocking her in her scream then I did the rest of the service in the mothers room with her on my back

I actually prefer her on my back and I have resolved that if that’s what it takes then so be it

My spirit is desperate for fellowship and Jesus Christ in the church. I must be willing to loosen up. I must be willing to take the stares from the ushers and be willing to say I don’t know to five different people asking me what’s wrong with her

I must be willing to listening to someone saying give her panado when I have no panado on site, needless to say I don’t find myself having panado needing moments at home, so I’m not used to it

The one thing I enjoy is the fact that I can rock up my jeans and flat shoes and a shirt to church, joys of modern society. This attire works wonders for me and I plan to stick to it for as long as I need to

Loosening up is a necessity if I’m going to lead a healthy life 

It’s also called being flexible. Nothing is perfect in life, I need to be grateful that my kids are healthy and not stress about how they get irritable and unsettled in church or at a restaurant sometimes. Very soon my kids will be old and leaving to pursue their callings….. I have learned that 12 years is not a very long time. 
All I need is to breathe, loosen up and live life to the best of my God given ability 

Active lifestyleΒ 

I try to put in a 30 minute exercise on my stepper
I have not been to gym in 3 days grateful to KG who surprise me with this tool

I have done 80 minutes to date πŸ‘ŠπŸΎπŸ‘ŠπŸΎπŸ‘ŠπŸΎπŸƒπŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸƒπŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸƒπŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸƒπŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸƒπŸΏβ€β™€οΈ

What’s for dinnerΒ 

Basmati rice

Tomato sauce 

Grilled T-bone 

Grilled wings 

Tuna , mayo and beansπŸ˜†πŸ˜†πŸ˜†had to mix up something to add some weight in my diet

Oven baked potato wedges and butternut 

I eat only minimal and I serve everything in my lunch box


Mid week menu

I did BBQ chicken thighs

I liked how all the oil is drained out

I shouldn’t put it on that server should I?

Mixed veggies 

I made some mean chakalaka oooohπŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎ

Finally I added beetroot 

Last night menuΒ 

Last night I prepared BBQ chicken cooked in a bag, I love love BBQ chicken 

I served it with pasta , coslow and beetroot. I always keep these two in my fridge, KGs favorite 

I added some fried konje what’s this beef strips called πŸ˜†πŸ˜†fried in garlic sauce 

I love two meat types in my menu

I then baked vanilla cupcakes βœ…βœ…βœ…βœ…βœ…πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚the kisses and hugs my girls gave me aaaahπŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™. I had never used the sprinkles before and I just didn’t have the time to pin how they make them stick. I came up with an idea to take honey and water , rub over the muffin and then voaaalaπŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎ

I also put some jelly in the fridge for the weekend…. I love giving the girls the old school type of experiences πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ. I’ll propably get ultramel to add to it. I need more color though otherwise everything will be yellow ☝️

There’s a lot going on in my pictures which represent the life of a mother 

My daughter decided she’s done with her gum and just placed it right on my table, she says I can still eat it , it’s still sweet πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ

Then they asked for snacks and then saw muffins, then muffins took over. Juice was left there , close enough for someone to reach it 

I was also administrating the installation of the explorer 

I also had to fill forms to change our numbers at the security gate 

So I needed that coffee my dear πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ


The fitness mission as a stress management tool is still on

I’m constantly fighting against the spirit of procrastination 

My very first week at the gym , I found out that the showers are under repairs. I noticed that taking a pause would set me up for despair.  I started with my sessions and used my work space to clean up afterwards. The nature of our work provides the factory workers shower facilities, I got to discover that only the men have showersπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ Still I didn’t despair, I worked with the basin times five days 

I had also gone to update my gym gear but forgot to buy the slippers. Well, I realized KG has some, I dragged them along, they are two sizes bigger but hey, I’m trying to make things happen and not come up with excuses ….. I’m not a shopaholic so I don’t find myself in the shops often. Hence the need to find alternative solutions.

My fitness level has improved , happy to say I have done at least ten days in a gym so far

I keep pushing myself 

I keep training my mind, again 


Sleeping time not so easy

I think I spoke too soon about how great the sleeping time is going for us

It’s not going great for us anymore , we going through the emotions and feeling like we are neglecting our babies

Look changing a parten of almost four years of sharing the bedroom with our kids will not be an easy thing to do 

We miss them terribly and now we are having conversations of how are we going to build our bond together 

You see the routine has always been as follows 

I am up at 5:15 I get myself ready , easy because I go to the gym prior to work,then I prepare my 3 year old for Creche, I bath her myself and have always done so for all her school days, this year being her second year. We leave the house at 6am and I drop her at Creche by 6:10 latest.

Our youngest remains behind with our helper

Kg picks Katlego up at 5pm from the creche and they are home by 5:05 latest. I arrive home by 5:30 depending on the traffic 

Between 5:30 and 6:00 it’s usually time to settle in , greetings, changing our work clothes to our casual clothes. It’s lots of kisses, lots of pick ups , huggies and just finding out about each other’s days. It’s the time I use to defrost something if I forgot to take it out in the morning, which is many times πŸ˜†

Then back to the routine, ausi Sarah steps in, takes the kids for a bath, I prepare dinner and by 7:30 pm we are all done. These days I do the laundry in between my cooking πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ

Some days once they are done with their bath, I squeeze in lessons, from drawing, coloring, counting etc. I always keep the lessons to a maximum of 30 minutes. This so that I don’t get overwhelmed and to keep them excited for more the next time. 

Usually ausi Sara gives them their meals before we have ours. This has worked out very well as we prefer for them to eat pap. Kg doesn’t eat pap so having them eat before us sort of allows them not to crave what eat later on

Also by the time we eat, they always have bites of our food as their dessert…. makes me miss my dad because I would always stand next to him when he was eating pap and amasi. He always yelled out “kanti awusuthi na” or he would ask my mom “lomntwana ubulawa yindlala na” and I have learned that there’s just a beautiful feeling that I got when I could pick a spoon and dig in with my dad

And so I love it when my kids choose the tomatoes on my plate, they love beetroot, carrots, tomatoes , spinach and they will finish my food before I even get to eat. I just took it as my other way of helping my weight loss project πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€. It’s a beautiful experience I must say. At the back of my mind I do wish to have a formal dining with the family every night since I love to cook, but until then , out informal dinner setting purely reminds me of home and I appreciate it 

Once dinner is done which is consistently by 7:30 pm I either do the dishes or ausi Sarah takes care of them

I will either continue with the laundry these days and the cartoon channel will be on. Prior to the change in bedroom I would take the time to prepare the bedroom for sleeping time. One team on the floor which must be made comfortable with lots of blankets πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€no spongeπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ. This is the easy part, picking up the blankets in the morning is something I didn’t look forward to and honestly I did leave it for our helper most of the times. This is one part that the new sleeping arrangement has eliminated, a plus for meπŸ‘πŸΎ

By 8pm everybody is usually cuddling up on the bed , which would be me and Kgaogelo and Kg and Katlego would be on the floor. Once the lights are switched off, it takes less than ten minutes for everybody to start snoring 

Kg wakes Katlego about twice at night to go make a wee. Then at 5:30 she’s up getting ready for school 

There are so many memories and crazy things that we miss. Sometimes Katlego will want to sleep by me, yet in the middle of the night she will crawl back to papa. The feeling of having them so close to us gave us the feeling of being complete and whole I guess 

Even when one is struggling to sleep for whatever reason , I miss saying my night prayers and seeing how calm and peaceful they get and instantly go back to sleep 

I am grateful for the path of growing and I’m appreciative of the significant changes this has brought 

1. I don’t have to switch off the lights so soon just so that someone can go to sleep, this has helped me throw in one chapter of a book I have been struggling to make time to read

2. I have since managed to catch up 1 day with the Bible study program that I had missed for more than 365 days, I’m not obsessed with it but it’s good habit for my soul to have spiritual nourishment 

3. Yesterday I flossed and brushed my teeth before going to bed …. honestly I’m not going to say when last I did that πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ

4. I wake up being sooo well rested and I am grateful for a good night sleep, I had completely forgotten how that even feels like 

5. My morning is much more calm, I’m not tripping over blankets, shoes and toys, my bedroom is looking much better in the morning and I have managed to make it up each morning as a result 

6. I realize that Kg and I have extra time to catch up and have a great conversation and more πŸ˜†πŸ˜†πŸ˜† πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

7. I’m seeing an opportunity to have time with Jesus , either at night or in the fact. It’s been four years without 

8. I now understand how such an arrangement is beneficial for a studying parent. For the longest time Kgaogelo would wake up every time I get up, I learned she sleeps through the night now πŸ‘ŒπŸΎπŸ‘ŒπŸΎ

This is what we are mindful of

1. That relating to our kids must have more informal settings which being in the same bedroom provided for. From the time of coming back from work to eating it feels so formal that one feels you can’t even laugh out loud because you are on a schedule πŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈ..,, we need to figure out what this means for us 

2. Bedtime stories were easy to do when they are right beside me , it requires a lot more effort to do it when I’m not in the warm blanket or just the way I’m used to. In fact I have not introduced it in the new arrangement 

3. We want to make sure that Katlego continues with her potty training, which we are surprised that she has voluntarily woke up by herself and went did the wee wee 😳😳😳😳😳. So far the roof leaked once… potty training requires ausi Sarah to wake up , which deprives her of her sleep but it seems it might not be so if she manages to wake up by herself 

4. Kgaogelo shares a bed with ausi Sarah and we know Kgaogelo to be an early bird. I’m realizing that it could have been made by the fact that she knew we were around and off course the noise we made when preparing ourselves. For three days Kgaogelo woke up after 6 amπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈπŸ€·πŸΏβ€β™€οΈthat’s a first 

5. We are mindful not to overburdened ausi Sara, the kids are ours and she’s here to help. Thankfully we have never required of her to be up in the wee hours of the morning. With the kids in the other bedroom it’s even better because Kgaogelo is usually asleep when we leave. In the old routine Kgaogelo would be up which meant she also had to be up to mind her. We can now let them sleep and only wake up once they are ready 

This process has taught me a lot. The fact that Katlego woke up to make wee by herself, the fact that Kgaogelo can sleep through the night until past six and finally they look happy and smiling when they see us. The kids are fine 

Change always fosters growth !!!!!! 

I didn’t know that they were capable of doing all this so soon

Dear God 

Help us raise our kids to know you and live a life in reverence of your name 

In Jesus name, amen 

Sharing is caringΒ 

The Holy Spirit was speaking very strongly about what to do with some of the food from yesterday and braai meat from the other day.

And I complied

Prepared this for the wonderful security team at the gate, it will help them feel warm on such a cold day 

They are doing a marvelous job and deserve every great treat 

Lots of meat πŸ– pork , chicken breast and beef

Tomato sauce in brown onion and lots of garlic flakes



Because God cares and I too care